My Aim in Life

If there is anything I aim to be, I think it is to not be a bother.

I think I will settle with minding my own business and my loved ones, and keeping myself from ruining other people's.

I don't think I want to become a meaningful existence for a lot of people. Meaningful for enough people (people that matters to me) is ok. I don't even think I am trying to be a useful human being. As long as I am not a burden, it's great.

I generally aim low because I am lazy. But it's hard to be lazy and good at the same time. When you live with people, sometimes silence and impassiveness translated to evil. I chose to not do anything remotely remarkable because I am lazy, but some people suffer because I don't do anything. Because I don't stand with them, because I don't speak up. Because I don't help. Not helping means you're evil, sometimes. Even when you're not the cause.

So I just want to live without causing problems.
But even trying to live with just that, one requires to act and speak up.

And I am lazy.

Ok.

So I try not to be too lazy. Somewhat.



p.s. I feel bad for people who think they don't need to learn because they have faith. Isn't it ironic if you have faith that requires you to learn, but you don't because you 'believe'? If God don't want you to think, It won't give you the capacity to.

I Thought I Have

"Moving on, for me, is not about stop loving, or missing, or remembering things that are nice or bad. Moving on is knowing things changed and being fine with it." - Moving On

So it turns out that I am not fine yet.