Sunday, August 7, 2016

Trip and Stuffs

I was on a trip for a few days, with my friends, sleeping on other person's home. Funny thing is, it was just the first day and I was already counting the time when I will go back home. Not because it wasn't fun or anything (because it was fun and I had plenty of firsts), but I just like home. It makes me wonder if I always feel this way and only notice it because it's the first time I'd be away on vacation for more than 2 days or something.

There are a lot of opportunity to see the open sky, that I really like. I love seeing the open sky. It's so refreshing. There was one time when after like a total of 16 hours driving for 4 days I finally get to sit NOT behind the wheel and I can't think of nothing else but how relaxing and exciting it was. The sky was still dark, and the stars is really pretty, and the trees around are really tall and nice. The wind was pretty chilly but it's a nice change after hours exposed with car aircon. OOH I really like it.

And I also learnt things after this trip. I want to be a nicer person. I suppose I'm already quite nice (you cannot be too sure), but after this trip where I see my friends being nice, I want to be nicer! I experience kindness in this vacation and it makes me want to be a better friend. Though it's not like my other friends are not nice (I've been in current level of nice because of them after all), it's just there are a different kind of 'nice' that I probably experience exactly because of the circumstances. I am so happy that I think I want to be nicer, it's so cool.

Oh yeah, I drove quite a distance there too. There's one day where I drove like 140km (and only for around 4 hours! How crazy is that, sometimes it's an hour drive for just 10 km in Jakarta), my previous experience cannot compare. These 4 days driving distance is greater than all the driving of the 5 years having license (Since I rarely drive, thanks to the horrid traffic). Feels like I leveled up tons in one go, if I were a level 2 driver I was sure I've become like level 6 or 7 already. (I guess that's what passing a mountain with a manual will do to you. Paying respects to all drivers out there.)

My friend slept at my bed yesterday and said that my bed is comfy. I am so happy, because I think so too.

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Just the day before the trip, my friends and I join this board game tournament. The opponents in my table are newbies, whereas I played this game like every other day with my parents. But I lost. I'm so lame, hahaha! (I think the uncle that bet for me jinx my luck. Dang. I was leading like until the last 3 turns.) My friends also lost--all of us in the first round. We then witness the difference between a veteran and amateur. It reminds me a lot of sports anime something, cuz I always play mindlessly--like with so and so plans or strategy--but there are these folks who are like crazy serious with this stuff. It's fun, though! Gonna do it again some other time.

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A bonus conversation I had with my senior a month ago:

What is success for you?
To not regret.

What is the thing you regret the most?
That I don't let him sleep in my bed.

What is the saddest day you've ever had?
The days when I go home and I remember that he's gone forever.

What is your biggest fear?
That I will live long enough to feel that I can't keep waiting for life to end, and that I have to end it by my own means.