On Making Friends

"Have you made friends?"

I got this question a lot. I do want to have friends, but now it kinds of make me wonder about friendship--something that I am not very sure about since the question pops up from time to time:

Is making friends suppose to be easy?

A lot of people ask me this, and I kind of get the idea why it is important for me to have some. But there is this thing that bugs me because I got the sentiment that I should've make some in certain occasions.

But making friends is hard. I don't even get how or when did you become friends with someone. Every time I went to this event, or join a society, or attend a seminar even--people ask me if I made friends there. Honestly? I don't know. I talked with some people, but does that mean I am friends with them then? How much of social interaction is enough to make me understand that we are friends? All this time, friends are people whom I get to know because we share the same space often (like class or organization) and it was build with time until I gradually get that they don't mind my existence and that I like hanging around them. I think at least there is a conducive environment to interact and common background that we share to be friends with someone.

(Even then I know that these relationships are bound to end, because sometimes there is just no situations where we can interact or we've changed plenty to have anything in common anymore) (But it's ok isn't it if nothing lasts forever why should friendship be an exception)

So yeah. Is common to... be one in a certain amount of time? Because I don't think I am pretty good at that.

What I want to say is that I don't think making friends is easy. Or maybe it's just not easy for me. I want to have friends, it feels good to have friends. But it's not easy... there are a lot of things that entail by being friends. I know that it's ironic because I don't really have certain expectations of friendship as long as it satisfy my social need (one-sided friendship is a thing, no? I embrace it), but I value this notion of friendship, and I hope as I try to be a friend, I managed to do it well.


p.s. One time I talked to my housemate that I am bad with people, and she said "I don't think you're bad with people, we only met yesterday and I think it's like we've known each other for a while." little did she know that it's not me who's good (with people)--she just makes it easy for me to do so.