Thank you for reading!

Heheheheheh.

I want to thank you all for reading my blog! Thank you! I used English just in case ada bule yang baca juga. Tapi highly unlikely mengingat tulisan rani rata-rata pake bahasa Indonesia.

Tapi nih rani seneng nih sebenernya! Belom selesai. Makasih ya semua orang ya baca blog rani. Perasaan dulu rani pas bikin blog nggak ngarep dibaca orang juga sih cuma iseng aja kayaknya ngetrend gitu tapi ya ampun, nggak nyangka aja ada yang baca. Apa lagi dulu tulisan rani masih ancur-ancuran banget-bangetan ya (sekarang juga masih tapi naik level dikit jadi mayan) nggak ada bagus-bagusnya yang diceritain juga nggak ada nggak penting gitu ya. Sekarang juga masih tapi udah agak rani kurang-kurangin dikit laaa (pelit).

Ya pokoknya rani nggak nyangka.

Awal-awal rani pikir cuma yang kenal rani doang yang baca (dan rani yakin emang gitu) terus anonim ngomen atau nulis di cbox itu cuma seorang teman baik hati dan tidak sombong yang diberi wangsit untuk men-encourage rani menulis (yang tujuannya tidak diketahui, simply dia berhati naga #besarmaksudnya) tapi gitu deh. rani kadang bolak balik baca tulisan rani bingung apa yang bikin menarik. Emang mungkin nggak menarik, rasanya orang yang baca blog rani paling nggak ada kerjaan iseng-iseng baca kebanyakan waktu luang. Padahal kalo rani niat-niatin bikin yang bagus hasilnya fail. Oh rani tau pasti gara-gara quote nya oke-oke deh. Iya dong namanya quote kan nyolong masa nyolong quote yang nggak oke. Yah semoga kalian masuk surga yang baca. Amin.

Terus makasih banget maksimal yang ngomen dan nulis-nulis di blog ini juga (nggak cuma baca) walaupun rani nggak ngarep komen (pesimis) dan emang rani ngerti perasaan orang yang nggak komentar (rani emang bukan tukang komentar. Tega ya) pas baca ada yang pengen baca tulisan rani yang rani aja suka males baca rani jadi terharu banget terus seneng banget ada yang bilang gitu walaupun cuma iseng atau becanda. Makasih ya! Semoga masuk surga yang paling-paling oke dari semua surga.

Yaudah sebenernya mau bilang itu aja. Makasih ya. MMUAH. Oiya ya baru nyadar juga rani udah berumur banget nih bikin blog (lumayan)! Dari rani kelas X! WAWAWAW terus rani sekarang udah kelas XII!! Ya ampun! Rasanya tua.

rani selama ini ngepost biasanya buat rani (dasar orang), tapi kali ini rani nulis buat yang baca deh ciee pada seneng nggak (crowd: "NGGAAAAAK")

"You saved our lives! We are eternally grateful!"

—The Aliens, Toy Story

Average but cool enough.

Pengen deh rasanya bikin sesuatu, menciptakan sesuatu atau menemukan sesuatu atau menyadari sesuatu atau membuat seni terus abis itu di publish kemudian orang-orang terpana dan bilang waw! Yang nyiptain/nemuin/nyadar/bikin hebat banget ya! Pengen deh jadi kea gitu. Nggak harus lebay gitu lah kayak penemuan Lego atau Rubik atau penemuan coklat penemuan hamburger atau penemuan mi instan atau teori-teori macam saudara Aristoteles, Newton, Adam Smith, Ibnu Khaldun atau Paul Samuelson atau siapakek temen-temennya; para troper kayak di tvtropes itu juga oke, orang nggak kenal tapi dalam hati yang baca: GILA ya nih troper bisa ya kepikiran bikin trope kea gini! atau Gue nggak nyadar sama sekali sampe tulisan ini gue baca; atau kayak strip komik XKCD (note: yang cuma berisi stick figure dan bertulisan dan berkotak-kotak) yang bikin orang menjadikan Randall Munroe sebagai pahlawan barunya; atau kayak browsing di tempat-tempat macam Pixiv/deviantART dan menyadari fakta bahwa hanya ngeliat gambar/foto aja kadang bikin sesek napas sangkingkan bagus; atau denger orang lagi main musik/nyanyi kemudian termenung gimana caranya musik yang bikin hilang kesadaran itu bisa diciptakan oleh manusia; atau kayak cerita-cerita singkat tapi menyentuh dasar hati atau cerita panjang dan menginspirasi dst. Banyak deh.

Keren kan. Banyak banget ya, dan nggak jarang yang gituan (dari penemuan Lego sampe bikin cerita bagus) selain bikin orang seneng, bikin orang terinspirasi, bikin orang semangat, bikin orang termotivasi wah pokoknya oke banget kan.

Pengen banget tuh jadi kayak gitu, kapan ya kesampean.

Mungkin besok.

Hahaha nggak deng.

Mungkin nggak besok, tapi pasti kesampean deh. Insya Allah. Amin!

My Point Exactly.

Not only tvtropes, this site as well. Oh yeah, don't forget this one. Can't.. stop.. making.. new.. tabs..

maunya

rani mau nulis sesuatu tadi tapi rani lupa. Jadi rani akhiri sampai sini saja.

Max Optimism Max Pessimism

"Million-to-one chances crop up nine times out of ten."

—Granny Weatherwax

Let see.

Dream, thank you. I finally found you. Ole Kirk Christiansen, thank you. Thanks to your incredible invention, you made me realize this the first time ever after all this years. The beauty of toys. Aliekha Tierandha Putri, thank you. If you didn't bring that newspaper, I probably stuck with things I don't even like that much in the first place. Thank you, my special friends that helped me, encouraged me to find it. Thank you mama and papa for listening to my childish-idiotic-SillyRabbitIdealismIsForKids thoughts, even though you probably didn't get what the heck I was saying, even though you thought there are bigger and better things I can do, and still encouraged me for it. Said things that warmed up my heart, my tiny heart that knows nothing. A heart full of hope and excitement. Like never before.

For a moment there there's a doubt in me that says, "What if it's just temporary illusion?" "What if it's just an ego, stupid-stupid-goodfornothing-temporary ego, just like every other labile teenager in whole universe experienced?" and whatnot.

I'll say, I don't care.

I've been in doubt for a long time and I-don't-know-when I forgot the excitement, but my body still remembers. And I want to make sure that I remember too.

For all I know, no matter how wild my dreams were (while sleeping) I'd never believe such things as.. that. I'm sceptic. I slapped away idealism with things that I called cynic reality, even when I truly want that so-called idealism to be real. I’m suppose to be 16! The age when people believe that world was made of sweets and rainbows! (or at least that's what I believe) Heck, I don’t even believe that when I’m 10 or younger. Let alone now.

So why now? What made me changed my mind? What made me believe?

I don’t know.

Huh? Yeah, seriously. I don’t know. It just strucks me like Pikachu’s Thunderbolt in the middle of windy day. But whatever it is, I'm glad. Because I was content without this dream, and now I feel awesome. Just by dreaming. Imagine what would I feel if it comes true.

I don't really care about how the life goes, I'm just there to play my part. And that's enough. I'm happy. I don't know, nor care, about what kind of future lies in front of my eyes, unseen. This is the dream that I wanted. The dream that surpasses my consciousness that a rani won't live forever. That's enough for now. What I need to do is do my best. Wow. I still can't believe that I just typed that.

Talent? No I don't have any. But that just means that I have to work harder, nothing else. I have a lifetime to make up for that.

I will survive. This post will be my witness. As well as you guys who read it.

"You're sure to do impossible things

If you follow your heart

Your dreams will fly on magical wings

When you follow your heart

—"Follow Your Heart," Thumbelina

p.s. My old self would probably snorted and shrugged it off.