My this year resolution!

..I guess.

Hahaha.

I've always thought.. urhm scratch that. I thought that resolutions are trash (for me!), because I'm not the kind of person who follows things I've said or written or planned, Idk if it's because I'm too young for this or if that's just me in general and for forever, so yeah, it doesn't really make any difference whether I make one or not.

For example. I have this book that I planned to be my no. 1 source of my random thoughts written. But it failed. It's hard to keep track of what's in your mind and it's hard for me to commit on writing every time things weird or nice or whatever cross my mind so there. I think I'll turn this book into 'quotes I made and stole that would be nice to be on script or so I thought'. And I had wanted to change my writing style. Look where it got me. OH. And I had written what I wanna be in the future, around this time but a year ago, in my blog, and.. here I am. I still think it's.. appealing, but Idk! I just.. I change my mind a lot! And I'm proud of it! We'll just see what the future has in its sleeve hehehehehe.

So! When it comes to something like this, like planning or foreseeing or predicting or whatever, I suck! Well.. not for some cases but I'm just not the kind of.. 'Journal' and 'Dear, Diary..' or something like that. Wait. Is it relevant? Because I think it still is.. but.. do you guys get it? No? Too bad, I'm going to continue anyway.

But why now? If I know that I'm not meant for this thing (sort of..) why do I do this? BECAUSE! I think I'm doing a different kind of resolution than what people usually do.

You see, instead of making a list of something 'I want to have but don't at the moment' or 'I want to do but didn't.. until now', I'm going to list things I want to keep doing or having, or things I want to stay for for...ever or things I already have and want more!

...Is that different kind of resolution or is it the same? According to its definition I don't think it's different, then again, I don't really pay attention to this kind of thing so Idk. But yeah! That's what I'll do!

Without further ado, this is my resolutions!

1. To be nice.

2. Important people around me feel loved. At least by me.

3. To be happy.

4. To love.

5. To smile.

Every other things can come and go, but I think these are enough job for me to do at least for a year if not forever. I want to see if I do this right, and even if I don't, at least I tried to! That's what counts, right?

So yeah. Happy another year! I don't mind for me to change, because both never and forever are a very long time, so I don't mind changing! Or else I'll be bored. But!! There are things I want to stay and keep because it makes a good enough me until now so why not for a very long time?

But we'll see.

p.s. That awkward moment when 'without further ado' is a further ado itself.